Wednesday, August 13, 2014

autumnal suggestions.

the sky, the air, the breeze today. the angle of our star, the sun. it's starting.
all these things have that 'feel' to them... that pre-autumnal essence, the beginnings of the very best time of year.

the yawnings before awakening the splendor, however temporary, of the fiery blaze and ever-present comfort of cooler nights, drawing us nearer to our loved ones, watching fires blaze, fingers entwined; over-sized sweaters, warm spiced beverages, the playful nip of brisk air at our cheeks, all awash with the cozy gold of the season of fallen leaves and bluest skies.

oh, how wistful i always am for the return of autumn.

Sunday, August 10, 2014

a surprise on the way.

yep, that's right.

there is a new blog concept + website on the way from yours truly, already in the works.

if you read the previous post, then you already have an idea of what i have in store.  lots of brainstorming and planning and sketching and scratch-throughs and designing and picking apart of things has been transpiring.  i have an excellent and very wise consultant to thank for that.

i would like to know your thoughts, though, as i prepare to shift to a whole new blog and website.  things people are interested in learning, observing, taking part in, gleaning tips and hacks from, etc.  i am starting from scratch, so to speak, so input and ideas will be greatly appreciated.

i will be sharing things here as i prepare to launch the new site-- sneakpeaks, tidbits, updates. if it tickles your fancy, then share the love with my work in progress once it goes live!

Friday, August 8, 2014

Turning a dream into reality?

Ever have a dream that seemed like the prelude to something awesome, but you can't quite figure out the meaning or intention of your subconscious?  Whether or not to follow this meandering dreamy idea into a field of fruition?

For example, last night I had a very vivid dream about starting a largely web-based business focusing on decor and artsy-folksy things for the home.  Rustic, simple, but also with modern eco-chic inspiration, as well.  Super eclectic but a mix of rustic farmhouse, new modern, and mid-century modern.  Maybe more-- I'm not always great with genres.  I can't really explain it very well, except to say that it was a very cool concept.  A marriage of vintage, farm, and beautiful new things to create something different all together.

And the dream was complete down to the name of the business and the branding/logo: The Level Nest.  Home + Living: Simplified.  I sketched it out this morning so I wouldn't forget what it looked like...  Makes me think I should actually look into starting this thing somehow.  I definitely have the vision and passion for it; now it would just seem that I need financial backings and the spark to ignite this flame, burning through the hazy mesh of dreams into the brighter light of reality.

Something to ponder, anyway.

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Who likes change, anyway?

I do.

And there has been a lot of it.  There was a great need for it, in all truth.

There still is.  And much change is on the way.
Of course, anyone who once followed this blog would be scratching their head right now.  "Change," you ask?  "What change?  Why?  I forgot you even existed!"  Yes, I am still here.  Different.  Stronger and more fierce and much more emphatic about seizing life and living it to the fullest, however possible.

General statements, I realize, but when you have lived life in years of abuse, abandon, neglect, and passive wanting for a fuller life, more whole and happy and, well, something livable...  You step out from behind the mask of happiness, and reach around the screen behind which you hide, and revoke your falsehoods and smear the make-up and mascara with cleansing tears.  You say enough is enough.  You no longer rely on man or spirit or painting or verse.  You rely on yourself, because that is the only thing that ever got you through every terrible thing you have ever experienced.  You let your heart break and wait for it to heal, and break again, and heal again, as many times as it takes to propel you on your path within this life.  You start over.

I'm starting over.

Wednesday, May 22, 2013




Monday, April 8, 2013


The other day my son came up to me with his wooden toy wrench and started turning it around my leg and knee. I smiled and asked him what he was doing. He replied, matter-of-factly, "I'm fixing you, mommy." So I laughed and brushed it off, saying I didn't know I needed to be fixed.

But then I thought more about it later, his cute little gesture coming to mind, but then placed more focus on my response.

I do need to be fixed. We all do, really. But we can't do the fixing, nor can any other person on this earth. There are temporary fixes, distractions, things we utilize for bandaging our hearts and filling our voids, however futile and short-lived they may be.

Thursday, March 21, 2013

Seed Swappin' and Such.

It has occurred to me more and more over the years that I really love organic gardening.  Watching tiny heirloom seeds grow into something beautiful and edible is really so mesmerizing.  So this year I've taken up seed swapping with a few people.  For a girl who likes gardening, this is like the best new pen-pal idea I've seen aside from delicious organic recipe exchanges... ! Some of my seeds were purchased, but many I also saved from different heirloom tomato varieties.

(some of my tomatoes growing early last summer, 2012)

Part of what prompts my passion to continue organic gardening on a small scale is seeing how hard organizations like the Organic Consumers Association and Environmental Working Group work to have genetically modified organisms labeled in stores, protect organic consumers' rights, and fight on the side of the organic farmer, just to name a very few things.  It saddens me that the largest parts of these fights involve financial support, which my family just can't give.  In spite of this, I will support them in the best and only way I can-- growing my own organic, non-GMO foods and continuing to purchase as many of these types of items as possible from the grocery store.  

All this to say...  Try growing something of your own.  It really is so easy, and even if you just purchase a packet of organic seeds or pick up a small pot of organic herbs already growing from a local greenhouse or garden center, you'll begin to enjoy reaping goodness tended by your own hand.  And if it doesn't go so well right away, try again with something else later in the season or next year.  Then you can start saving and swapping seeds!  It could be a great hobby or something to which you'd really love to dedicate all of your time and efforts.  Try container gardening with a tomato plant or two.  I really like My Square Foot Garden's ideas...  Or try a raised bed garden using ideas from Grit Magazine or Mother Earth News.  These are great resources full of tips, ideas, garden planning...  The possibilities are really endless.  Use soil mixes, such as the 'recipe' cultivated by Mel Bartholomew, a square-foot gardening guru (his recipe was a no-fail for me last year, having tried it for the first time, and I got great pumpkins and butternut squash using the recipe for my container gardening! I had already started the tomatoes with a different mix of slightly more acidic soil and nitrogen-rich compost, which tomatoes really love). 

For Mel's mix, you'll need the following, calculated by volume according to the size of your plot(s):
  • 1/3 vermiculite
  • 1/3 peat moss
  • 1/3 compost (from as many sources as possible)
And there you have it.  Experiment!  Pick something you'd like to grow.  I always really enjoy growing tomatoes, though if you'd rather start simple, try something like rosemary that doesn't require much attention after you get it started (though it does need good irrigation, but that's something to take into account when planting/potting it, not an ongoing care issue).